My happy place. My healing place. My grounding place.

 My happy place. My healing place. My grounding place.

Its fair to say the last couple of months have been a little shaky and nothing like I'd envisioned life 'post job' to be. Yet I understand everything happens for a reason and am choosing to see the blessings arising from really slowing my life down

Some days are good and others not so great. My body lets me know when I've overdone it and really need to rest. I've struggled with sharing openly this part of me. I've had a few realisations this morning that I'd like share, in case they resonate and give you permission to take the slow lane for a bit.

Firstly I feel a lot of shame around not functioning fully at 100% all of the time. I've felt defective because a fast-paced life just isn't my thing. Being able to put words around my feelings has been another challenge and I'm working through that at the moment.

My nervous system is currently recalibrating after too many years of being under constant stress and pressure to perform and achieve. This has been a constant theme for much of my life. I grew up in a home fuelled by anxiety and have had jobs that have been fast-paced, so my body is used to running on adrenaline pretty much as a norm. The fact that my health is showing me that things are not in balance shouldn't come as a surprise really. But it's been a major challenge to slow right down, to pause the achievement button for a bit, to allow myself to fully embrace the space of being in between, to become aware that the agenda I'd had for myself is not in alignment with my greater good at this present moment.

There's a lot of "undoing" happening right now on many levels. The greatest gift I can afford myself is time, space and patience to allow my body to come back into its natural balance, where it is thriving rather than merely surviving. I'll post again soon to share with you some of the ways and the processes I'm embracing to help me with this.

And here is your permission slip to slow down, to breathe, to recalibrate, to come back home to you.

Big love

Shanelle xxx